Post by sammiethepro on Sept 8, 2006 21:05:43 GMT -5
some of you might read this and think "how stupid is sammie? allowing herself to sin like that?" but i had no clue what i was doing at the time.
don't hold this against me.
This summer, the last week of june/first weeks of july, i struggled. with a drug addiction.
not ILLEGAL drugs, perfectly legal over-the-counter drugs.
One-A-Day Weight Smart, to be exact.
i was insecure.
i wanted to lose weight before high school.
be a different me, per say.
What God created wasn't good enough.
i hated myself.
ONE A DAY. meaning you are supposed to take ONE A DAY.
at first, i was taking one a day.
that escalated into "oh. i uhhhh... forgot to take one this morning i'll just take one now".
I was LYING to myself about how many pills i took.
so, it was 2 a day. ya know... not the end of the world. more than the amount stated, but okay.
THAT escaladed into way way more.
like, seriously, i was takng 4 or 5 of these things a day.
anyone who's ever seen a bottle of them, they have alot of iron in them.
iron controls you "awareness" factor. if youhave not enough iron, you're always really sleepy & sluggish all the time.
if you have TOO much iron, you can't sleep & are really hyper.
I had so much frikkin iron in my system that i was HAVING TROUBLE getting 3 hours of sleep a night.
so i stopped. i wanted to sleep.
getting 21 hours of sleep in 7 days is just not my idea of fun.
I seriously, literally and all the rest-ally had SO MUCH IRON in my system that I could not get a proper night of sleep for SIX DAYS AFTER I STOPPED TAKING THEM
yeahh...
if i would have kepy on that
i would have probably died.
of sleep deprivationn...
not really.
but i would be at a weight that was way too low. and would have serious health problems.
thank the Lord. he is good.
NEVER be insecure about who God created you to be.
trust me.
it's not as great as it seems.
don't hold this against me.
This summer, the last week of june/first weeks of july, i struggled. with a drug addiction.
not ILLEGAL drugs, perfectly legal over-the-counter drugs.
One-A-Day Weight Smart, to be exact.
i was insecure.
i wanted to lose weight before high school.
be a different me, per say.
What God created wasn't good enough.
i hated myself.
ONE A DAY. meaning you are supposed to take ONE A DAY.
at first, i was taking one a day.
that escalated into "oh. i uhhhh... forgot to take one this morning i'll just take one now".
I was LYING to myself about how many pills i took.
so, it was 2 a day. ya know... not the end of the world. more than the amount stated, but okay.
THAT escaladed into way way more.
like, seriously, i was takng 4 or 5 of these things a day.
anyone who's ever seen a bottle of them, they have alot of iron in them.
iron controls you "awareness" factor. if youhave not enough iron, you're always really sleepy & sluggish all the time.
if you have TOO much iron, you can't sleep & are really hyper.
I had so much frikkin iron in my system that i was HAVING TROUBLE getting 3 hours of sleep a night.
so i stopped. i wanted to sleep.
getting 21 hours of sleep in 7 days is just not my idea of fun.
I seriously, literally and all the rest-ally had SO MUCH IRON in my system that I could not get a proper night of sleep for SIX DAYS AFTER I STOPPED TAKING THEM
yeahh...
if i would have kepy on that
i would have probably died.
of sleep deprivationn...
not really.
but i would be at a weight that was way too low. and would have serious health problems.
thank the Lord. he is good.
NEVER be insecure about who God created you to be.
trust me.
it's not as great as it seems.